Logs:(Still) TTC

(Still) TTC
... or maybe not.
RL Date: 28 September, 2015
Who: Madilla
Involves: High Reaches Weyr
Type: Vignette
What: Six months on.
Where: Privy, High Reaches Weyr
When: Day 10, Month 12, Turn 38 (Interval 10)



OOC Notes: Trigger warning: infertility.


It had been difficult, at the end of the summer. By then, it had been several months, several failed attempts. Now it was winter. Madilla sat on the privy, staring down at the piece of rag in her hand, and tried not to cry. She'd been so hopeful, this time. There had been... sometimes, she had almost convinced herself that she could feel the fluttering of another heartbeat, though she knew, logically, it was far too soon. Sometimes she'd been so sure. And now she knew. Another month, gone. Another baby, potential-baby, bled away like trash. She'd known, from the beginning, that it might not happen. Seven turns, now, they'd been together. More than seven turns. She'd never once even been late. But staring down at that bloody rag, she felt the loss, deep and real and harsh. Probably, she was fooling herself. Probably, she was building herself up each month for no reason at all. She had three perfectly healthy, wonderful children. Clearly, she was supposed to content herself with them. Clearly... clearly this just wasn't to be. Six months of trying was too many. She bit her lip. She closed her eyes. She forced herself to move on.

Comments

Heartbreaking.

Oh my god. Please, don't break my heart like this. ;-;

Awwww girl....